I’ve been noticing more details lately. I notice things in songs I’ve listened to for years. I’ve been looking at pictures of places to travel and I always seem to end up short of breath. Colours are brighter. I’ve been studying linguistics and dreaming about them too. I am more in tune to things in other tongues and to the history of my own.

And there are still days where I feel I am in a fog. My entire body aches and my bones feel like they are about to collapse. Everything feels heavy and sometimes my eyes feel glazed. I am lonely. But my lows are not so low. I can shake them just enough. And in two weeks the sun will be mine.